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Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
10:30 am	Ord History I'm sitting in class right now, listening to this old Ord alumni guy talk about fort ord's history. I love little old guys, they're so sweet! Now I know where the cemetary is in the Ord, awsome. I want to look for ghosts, sounds like a good 'ole time. Listening to all this army history and stuff makes me think about my Grandpa-I miss him a lot, it's just a bummer when I know I can't talk to him about any of this stuff anymore, ask him questions about his life and hear his stories. The presentation is more interesting than I thought it would be. You are The Star Hope, expectation, Bright promises. The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised Current Mood: amused Current Music: Little old man talking (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
10:06 pm	Oh, one of these thingies 1. Explain what ended your last relationship? me-actually i think about that a lot, it was over a year ago-still regrets 2. When was the last time you shaved? this morning 3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.? sleeping 4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? cleaning the kitchen 5. Are you any good at math? not a fuckin bit 6. Your prom night? ehhh.... 7. Do you have any famous ancestors? well, i had a great great grandfather that tried to assasinate the king of Sicily...? 8. Have you had to take a loan out for school? yep 9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile? fuck those things 10. Last thing received in the mail? tax return 11. How many different beverages have you had today? 2 12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machine? oh, yah 13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to? probably like, Tom Petty 14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? nah, there are better things to draw 15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had? having 3 cavities filled with no novacain 16. What is out your back door? the balcony 17. Any plans for Friday night? see Night Of The Living Dead at midnight 18. Do you like what the ocean does to your hair? yes, i love that gritty, dreadlocky thing that happens-I really do 19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different popcorns? mmm, their good 20. Have you ever been to a planetarium? nope 21. Do you re-use towels after you shower? yar 22. Some things you are excited about? Hallow'een 23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO? lime 24. Describe your keychain(s)? very old grumpy bear lanyard and many keys 25. Where do you keep your change? in my purse, car, room, floor 26. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people? when the teacher called on my in class 27. What kind of winter coat do you own? old fake fur one from my grandmother 28. What was the weather like on your graduation day? i guess it was nice 29. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? closed, never know what I might be doing in there.... (Comment on this)
Monday, October 16th, 2006
1:59 pm	I got shoulder tapped by these two kids at the gas station wanting some cigarettes. Shoot, I'll help out some kids, I remember being in that situation in high school. So I take the money and I swear he said Marlboro 100's, get the cigs and return. He's like, 'Ah, I asked for Newports, can you go exchange them.' He was asking nicely and all but when I was shoulder tapping for cigs I would take what I could get. These funky kids today, they just aren't thankful for a hand like we used to be in our day. So whatever, I exchanged them and everyone was happy. The End (Comment on this)
12:31 pm	Melody and I are starting to put aside $100 a month individually so that we can go to England in the next year or two. That's one of my main goals now, to travel again, see England, Ireland, Scotland, go back to Europe...I could easily catch the traveling bug. I think I'm going to quit my job. This isn't an easy decision to make. On the one hand I can use the money coming in. I've been trying to save up and I feel like I'm not getting paid enough anyway-compared to what my friends are making. Rob makes almost 10 bucks and hour at fuckin Blockbuster. I'm an assistant manager and I make a little over 7 dollars an hour. The real issue i have is work is taking up too much time. I don't have time to work on other people's capstones or film stuff of my own. Why go to school if you aren't going to do what you're studying. It's just hard to give up the stability of a job knowing that at some point you're going to have to find another one. I'll have to find one for summer again. I took Mel to her first Ren faire yesterday. She's a total convert now and that makes me happy-finally have someone other than my family to go with. The new apartment is going great, I get along with my other two roommates so well, probably, becasue we hardly see eachother. The three of us didn't know each other before we moved in together, but it's all chill. One of them has a cat so i'm all happy to have an animal in the house. He's a little butthole cat sometimes though, he has too much attitude. Nothing really to complain about but I feel like something is about to happen, like something is going to change. alright, I gotta get outta the house now, before I go to class until 8pm, just so I don't feel like I was inside all day. And I missed the fucking Flogging Molly concert again. for the third fucking time!!!!!! It was a Thursday night and I couldn't go because my job wouldn't let me cut down my shift, which wouldn't be a problem except they wanted me to stock for them which really wasn't important, at all. That pissed me off. I'm quiting. FUCK. THAT. SHIT. Current Mood: pensive Current Music: Cracker, 'Low' (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
1:06 pm	Well, guess getting the internet running didn't really change the fact that i'm almost never online. Summer is good and cool stuff is happening... Best part was going to Europe for two weeks, that was FUCKIN AWSOME. I went on a tour with my family and a couple other families and people from my highschool, so it was really fun and good people to be with. Went through Spain, France, and then Italy. I'm telling you, I would be ready to just pick up and move over there. Spain was my favorite. Nicest people and it helped that I knew a little bit of the language. Everything is so so different over there. No big cars. No fat people. No toilette seat covers, but I can over that. Lots of coffee. And alcohol. I'm telling you, I drank my way through Europe like a pro. Just ask Liz. That was my favorite part, no fucking idiotic 21 drinking age limit-so I took ample advantage of that, and brought back 4 bottles of wine. The sites, the smells, everything just seems so different, just the attitudes and general feeling are so awsome, I would really like to just be there. Study abroad is sounding more and more interesting. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
9:05 pm	Well, haven't updated in a while becuase Lindsay and Rose haven't gotten the cable and internet hooked up yet...i don't mind having no TV but it's kind of a drag not to have internet. I just end up using Rob's computer. The summer is going pretty damn good so far. living in the livingroom isn't that bad, really. except for the amazingly LOUD sex one of my roommates and her bf were having one night...... it's been pretty pleasant. I'm working, and chillin with everyone. It turned out super with everyone living in Sunbay together, with the exception of Melody. Rob and I pine for her a lot. She's making me crazy though. She decides right before summer that she HAS to go home for the summer instead of find a place like we had been planning. Ok, that's cool, Rose and Lindsay took me in and I'm cool with that. Now she's talking about not coming back to Monterey at all. What the fuck. Needless to say I don't understand, I'm worried about losing a best friend, and nervous about with who and where I'm going to find a place at the end of summer. I'm hoping it's just a phase... But I'm not letting it get me too down. Being here keeps me entertained, like when Rob and I drive to 7eleven for sunflower seeds at 2:00 in the morning because we HAVE to have sunflower seeds while we watch Conin... :-) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
1:44 am	I'll miss my walks around campus at 2:00 in the morning. I've been so restless, and I can't apply it to anything useful. I'll be living in Sunbay over the summer. I'll be glad to leave San Jose behind as 'where I live' and really live here. There's people I miss so much, but I need to live my life. Even as content a person I usually am, I have the urge to move to something else, I just want a change. while on my walk tonight I ran into a family of racoons and a skunk. Some people on this campus are so fucking stupid and annoying. there was one guy yelling out of a window at a girl sitting in a window in the building across from him, just being a drunk, dumb, asshole. And she was just as bad, insulting each other and shit. I just wanted to shoot them in the head. And I saw the cops roll on building 211, atleast I surmise that's what they were doing. Now there's nothing else to do, guess I'm going to bed. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 12th, 2006
2:38 am	Well, my 2:00 in the morning walk. What can I say. Should I be concerned that these walks in the wee hours of the morning aren't safe? Oh well... The moon was beautiful tonight, absolutely. I can walk to the other side of campus, but I'm too scared to go further than that-there might be zombies out there, or meth addicts looking for copper to sell... Current Music: horrorpops (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 6th, 2006
3:55 am	There are so many 'remember when's' that run through my head at the most odd times. I took one of my 3:00 in the morning walks around campus. I swear, no one is ever out except me and the skunks. Like the other night, I'm walking back and I see this skunk just hanging by the trash can. He looks at me. I look at him. Then he starts running toward me! So I fuckin run away. What the fuck is wrong with nocturnal animals these days. What is wrong with ME these days....? Probably the same thing that's been wrong for a while. Heartache. And randomly walking around a deserted campus at 3:00 in the morning. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
2:04 pm	Well, Last week was one of the worst weeks of my life. My relationship is falling apart and my grandfather passed away friday morning. I felt like a fucking zombie for 5 days. I still have bronchitis sorta and I've been running off of the least amount of sleep I think I ever have. Needless to say I don't feel like celebrating a birthday right now. Everyone is freaked out about turning 20. It still doesn't feel any different, I just get to finally say i'm 20 years old. Why does everyone feel that once they turn 20 they have to stop acting like a kid and enjoying life and doing crazy things? It's not like you wake up on the morning of your 20th birthday with a suit on. I started having responsibilities before i was 20 and I'll act like a kid after i turn 20. My service learning class is ridiculous. we were talking about the immigration protest and the counter protest and racism issues. Pam (prof.) was all in a heat because someone wrote shit in the bathroom about "mexicans go home" and starts calling it hate speech and how it feeds racism just like racial slurs, and what should be done about people that write things like that? Everyone just answered that the culprit should pay for damaging property and that it was freedom of speech. She thinks we're all just insensitive. Now, I don't use racial slurs and I won't even say them. But why is it that so many people won't say the "N-word" but feel fine speaking other racial slurs for asians, mexicans, or white people? Pam kept using the fact that she's from asian decent to account for her sensitivity to the Mexican plight, but she was just fine with listing off all the asian slurs she could think of and then told us that the "N-word" was much worse and she wouldn't speak it. Most of the responses were, because there is so much history of oppression connected to slurs about black people. So, other races haven't had to deal with their share of oppression? And if everyone wants to be treated equal, shouldn't we start by assuming that all racial slurs are bad instead of putting so much importance on a select few and saying that some slurs just aren't that bad and no one should care about those? Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Friday, April 28th, 2006
3:44 am	When it rains it pours. I've been wandering around the campus for 2 hours now... And smoked 3 cigarettes I'm waiting for something to happen, I figure i'll meet up with it faster if I walk forward to find it. I'm tired of acting like a regular person. It got old really fast. Please, please, please find me. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
6:39 pm	Vollond Komm schließ die Augen, glaube mir Wir werden fliegen über`s Meer Ich bin nach deiner Liebe so krank Die sich an meinem Blut betrank Die Bäume wachsen in den Mai Wer will schon einsam sein Doch heute in dem mildem Licht Bist du so nackt und heiß Mund an Mund die lange Nacht Der helle Mond zieht seinen Kreis Auf dem Boden Da liegt dein weißes Kleid Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
1:34 am	ooohhh 4/20 was cool, went to Santa Cruz with people and got faaaaded. I like weed again. It was fun, but maybe not a great idea because I currently have bronchitis. People keep telling me it's because I don't get enough sleep and I never rest and I've been sick for weeks, which turns into bronchitis. Um, I feel like shit over all, and I tell them I'll sleep during summer. I'm having a really really hard time figuring out where I'm staying over summer: apartment? stay at lindsay and roses'? live out of my car? maybe... Ok, I'm all of a sudden feeling done with updating. Current Mood: sick Current Music: buckcherry (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
9:07 pm	March 28, 2006 While all the suckers at CSUMB were starting class again after spring break, I was in L.A. watching Rancid put on an awsome fucking show. 200 person venue, Sunset Blvd. I was about 5 feet away from Tim and Lars, those georgous bastards... And a lot of people fell on my head and a lot of shoes kicked me, and a lot of booze was drunk. One of those "best nights of my life" times. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
3:49 pm	Uh... You're 5% Irish You're not Irish. Not even a wee bit. Not even on St. Patrick's Day! How Irish Are You? Yah, I know...*shrug* (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
12:33 am	Wow Weird day man. I've come to realize I have this affliction... Remember 'word vomit' from mean girls, yah. When I'm nervous. And my voice starts to shake, and my mouth goes dry... I probably sounded like an idiot. What's new. Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
12:11 am	cor·ro·sion P Pronunciation Key (k-rzhn) n. 2. To impair steadily; deteriorate So many of us do things that we can't undo. I wish I could stop thinking about what I can't get back. I think it's getting worse as time goes on, week by week, day by day, class by class. I'm wondering if there's something certifiably wrong with me yet. I also don't know what to do with myself at the moment. Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Sing this corrosion to me (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
11:02 pm	Goddamnit Every single time.... It's like a bullet to the heart. It's like a fucking lightning bolt to my soul. It still makes me stop mid sentance. It's always been the same. Current Mood: restless Current Music: Seether- 'Truth' (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
12:33 pm	Mommy, Am I Supposed To Be Throwing Up Blood? Beware: Do not eat the Tuesday special at KFC...atleast in Seaside. Jeff Ho, Rob, Mel and I got fuckin sick off that shit. I was pukin my brains out all night... But guess who's been hired?!? I'm a part of the working force once again, fan-fuckin-tastic. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Sublime & Gwen-Total Hate (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 12th, 2005
8:08 pm	My Prayer... Tät me se courir ou me foudra mourir Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)